#34

she falls apart
she's broken
she's not fine
she's hoping too high
she's fragile
she's no longer have the strength

strength to get up
and try and try and try ,

she tried so hard to throw everything away
the sadness ,
the pains ,
it hurts her a lot .

#32 Hangout

Assalamualaikum , hai !

Its about 18/4 people ! At last I got to meet some of my friends from Lenggong , yes team Lenggong ahaha Batch 10 :) Its such a happy and awesome day ever ! Sebab main bowling , makan sama sama . Hehe , oh yaa forgot to say that I hangout dengan Ain , Rai , Shera and Amir :) Hehehe , best gilak masa main bowling , cewahhh hebat jugak aku main . Second pun jadi lahh , sebenarnya aku first then ada lahh seorang tu potong ishh sakit  hati ! Hahaha sokay , memang enjoy gila ! Then , pegi makan dekat Johny's , bill RM88 something . Haa amekau , bayar  lah ! Aku dengan Amir makan paling sikit almaklumlah bila dah duduk sebelah sebelah memang jawapannya selera tak sampai . Haha tau tak aku makan fish ball satu dengan isi ketam satu then air ice lemon tea yang sangat masam then ain kot yang minum lol xD

Lepas makan pegi photobooth ! Hee best best haha and kecoh gilakk XD Will miss that moment , nanti kita photobooth banyak banyak lagi , I belanja half k . Hahahahaha jk . Lepas makan pegi popular , Shera nak belikan buku untuk adiknya yang tersayang gituu hahaha kakak mithali laaa kate kauu ! Kelasss tak ?! Hehe , then Ain nak balik dah pastu cepat cepat tangkap gambar pakai instax and tangkap gambar dengan Ain . Awww , I will really really miss you . I really appreciate your answer kat ask.fm tu :') Pastu Amir pulak nak balik dah , uwaaa sedih tapi cover , konon watlek watpis lahh enn enn . Padahal dalam hati menjerit 'Jangan balik lagi !' kihkihkih . K over sangat . Pastu tinggal aku , Rai and Shera je so we went to S&J and I  bought wrapper meja untuk dak dak kelas aku hehe .

And we went to playland kanak kanak dalam Jusco kat tempat barang budak budak tu hahaha , Rai lawan kereta dengan Shera then aku lawan motor dengan Rai and I win ! Pastu main menari ahaa senang je sebab ada 3 je yang kena pijak but still malas malas main XD First aku menang dengan Rai pastu kalah dengan Shera T^T Shera hebakkk oh menari ! Then lapar , hehe pegi McD then aku tengah order tetibe Rai nak balik dah tsk tsk . Aku akan sangat merindui kemanjaanmu Rai , take care kat PC :') Till we meet again soon ! Tinggallah aku dengan Shera , kitorang order Samurai Beef Burger , so its basically my second time lah makan burger ni hehe . Tapi Shera tak makan ! Dia kata kenyang tengok burger tu XD Btw dia dah makan banyak gilak dah kat Johny's so no wonder lah kaan kenyang tetiba hahahaha .

Lepas makan naik food court , eh tak tak bukan nak makan lagi tapi pegi jumpa parents Shera , they're having their dinner there :) Then sembang sembang sampai laa mak aku kata tunggu dekat Black Canyon pastu kami pun beransur lahh , then aku balik pastu Shera pulak hehe . It was a nice day ever . Best sangat ! Will miss you guys so bad , nak print gambar diorang nak letak atas meja nanti . Hehe .

See you guys soon ! Plan lah banyak banyak for hujung tahun nie . Aku harap sampai tahun depan kita hangout hangout ni hehehe . So , here's some picture :)

Pengkalan Chepa , Pengkalan Hulu and Lenggong :')

*Say 'Aaaa'* 

The ugly side of me .

The ugly side of me part2 

Rai and Ain :D

Shera buat muka terkejut pulak haha .

Ain't we're the sweetest ex ever ? Lol

Merempit dengan Rai , hihi cara selamat xD

Motor betul tak pandai bawak :P

Our #outfitoftheday :3

Photobooth and instax :)

Goodnight :)

#31 Happy Eid

Assalamualaikum . 

First of all , 

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI ,

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN (:

Hehe , mintak maaf sangat sangat kalau ada buat salah sama ada sengaja atau tidak :'( Di bulan yang mulia ini , mari lah kita sama sama memaafkan segala kesalahan sesama kita , buat apa disimpan . 

BUANG YANG KERUH , AMBIL YANG JERNIH ye kawan kawan . 

Tiada manusia yang sempurna , semua orang buat salah . Kita kena sentiasa cuba menerima sifat semulajadi yang ada pada semua orang itu . Setiap orang itu berbeza , ingat . Pesanan ini khas buat mengingati diri sendiri dan juga sesiapa sahaja yang membaca . Sama samalah kita cuba berubah okay ? 

Dah lama kaan tak update , taktahu laaa nak taip apa . Btw , Rabu ni ! Aku harap dapatt hangout ! Pelisss , rindu mereka mereka sekalian !

Tenth , I miss Tenth . Tahu tak ada yang cemburu melihat keakraban kami . 

Aku harap friendship kita sampai bila bila :) Sampai form 5 , sampai habis SPM , sampai masuk U . Hmm takut pulak bunyinya . Anyway , aku sangat berharap kita tak lost contact . Semoga laman web facebook tak jadi macam myspace lah . Sebab situ je ada group , ada semua orang , well tak semua tapi banyak benda kat situ so yeah . Hehe , I love you guys , always will do :)

#30

*this is me in le' class 408 , im sick of how's my life here*

Assalamualaikum and hi ! I'm home , yes . Hm but as usual 3 days or I think its 2 days of being at home is not enough :( I miss how I get enough rest like I used to have before . My life there was terribly horrible and tiring . Idk how it goes on fasting month . I keep complaining about that place and mama keep saying "Takpe , sekejap je lagi" or "Nasib baik setahun lebih je" (and I feel like crying ugh) My study , sangat teruk . I failed 3 subjects :( And I didn't go to math mode repeat test , lol because I balik bermalam okay ! And I have to crawl back to get A or target lulus je for graduate . K I hate this system , hmm .

Wahai hati , jiwa dan ragaku , bersabarlah dan teruskan melangkah . Allah knew the best for you .
For the sake of Allah , family and my future , insyaAllah . I will hold on tight and keep moving forward .

And I'll be back to maktab by this morning and whats hurt the most is I still didn't get enough sleep or rest . Blerghhh , tough 2 years (almost) I'll be facing . Pray for me , guys ! I miss Tenth , though . Hm k .

Stay strong and keep trying.

#29

Will be going back to maktab at 12 pm today . Ya Allah , give me chance to buy some stuffs tmrw . Give me strength to move on in life . I'm tired of everything and I was thinking to leave next year . Hmm if my parents bagi lah :( Homework tak siap , origami and puppet belum ready . Baju pandu puteri takde , seluar slack takde , baju hujan takde , lagu dunia and lagu pandu taktahu . Ya Allah , sedih sangat ni , k takpe lah .
Pasti ada hikmahnya , insyaAllah . Pray for me :')

#28 Holiday

Assalamualaikum uolls ! Here I am gigih menyiapkan homework dan bahan bahan untuk menyiapkannya sebab masa dah suntuk sangat ni haaa . This time nak cerita lah pasal trip 4 hari 3 malam kat Indon , Sumatera Barat iaitu Bukit Tinggi and Padang ! Woohoo ~ Lets start with day 1 .


Day 1 :
Before I start with out first destination . Kitorang bertolak malam hari Isnin tu , pukul 12 kitorang pegi KL sebab flight kitorang pagi , pukul 7.50 . Abah tak pegi , sebab baru je pelantikan so tak dapat cuti ( sobs )
Then , yang ikut ramai . Ini bukan family trip but aku taktahu trip sempena apa tapi ada lahh pekerja pejabat ayah aku 2orang , opah sedara , maklang , kak Anis , pakcik Nazri and family , pakcik Nan , haaa tu aje lah. Basically , yang pergi ni semua yang rapat dengan family aku lah .
So kitorang bertolak then banyak singgah singgah R&R bagai , sebab nak sampai LCCT on time . Pegi ramai ramai naik penerbangan murah aje lah , lainlah family aku je yang pegi , ahaks ! Tapi pakcik Nazri tu tiket dia dengan isteri dia je yang ditanggung , anak anak dia tu lain kira hahaha . Kitorang sampai LCCT dalam 5 lebih kot , pergh mengantuk gilaa ! Dah laaa petang semalam tu pegi shopping , ommo ! Tapi aku dah tido dalam kereta so takde lahh mengantuk sangat cuma penat .
Then , naik flight pastu tak sempat nak tidur pun , perjalanan sejam lebih je wehh . Makan pun cepat cepat , tambah dengan masa tu dah nak mendarat so flight tu dah ke bawah , anyonyo pening kepala aku nak makan. Haihhh pastu setibanya disana , pemandu pelancong kami menyambutlah kedatangan kami . Namanya pak Osman hahahaha , syarikat Saffira Tour :) Okay lahh agensi tu ramah mesra je hakhak . Tapi sampai sampai je sana tak check in hotel terus . Kitorang terus menuju ke destinasi pertama iaitu Lembah Anai , best lah , cantik air terjunnya ! And katanya air terjun tu juga digelar "Air terjun awet muda" tapi tak pasti lah apa cerita sebaliknya , semua pakat basuh muka , selawat bagai dengan air tu hahah . Mana lah tahu mujarab :p Then kitorang pergi "Pusat Dokumentasi & Informasi Kebudayaan Minangkabau" kat Padang Panjang . Seronok lah juga orang tu cerita pasal Minangkabau ni , and katanya Negeri Sembilan yang kaum Minangkabau tu pun asalnya situ . Kalau korang tengok rumah tu , tiang and tingkapnya senget . Sebab nak tahan dari gempa bumi kot , tiang bahagian atas tu tak dipaku , and bahagian bawah tu dikelilingi batu besar aku rasa , supaya bila gempa bumi , tiang tu hanya mengelilingi batu tu and tak runtuh . Setiap ukiran dalam rumah tu ada maksud , maksud yang baik lah . Macam nilai murni gituu . Contohnya kat tiang ada ukiran kucing pebenda tah then ada lah maksud dia . Dalam rumah tu ada berapa bilik eh ? Hm tak ingat tapi katakanlah ada 10 , satu keluarga satu bilik and bilik tu sangat sangat kecik , katil pun tak de. Tapi kalau anak lelaki bila dia dah berumur 6 tahun keatas dia dah kena keluar dari rumah and duduk kat surau , belajar agama and ilmu ilmu yang sepatutnya , malam pulak belajar silat . Pastu kalau anak perempuan kahwin dia akan duduk kat bilik yang first sekali , and aku rasa keluarga yang duduk dalam tu dah keluar sebabnya ada pengajaran kenapa bilik tu kecik , bilik tu kecik sebab nak suruh si suami kerja kuat kuat and buat rumah baru tapi bukan rumah minangkabau lah . Pastu pegi lunch then melontar haha melontar tu shopping ! Mengeluarkan duit ah hahahah malam pun melontar melontar ~ Bhahahah macam macam ayat kitorang belajar .


K sekarang aku dah malas nak sambung cerita hm takat ni je lah haha sorry not sorry !

Happy hols guys ! I'm going back to maktab soon , very soon cause it is tomorrow . Hell yeah !

Malasnya T_T Malasnya T_T Omg homework belum siap , dah lupa surah As-Sajadah .

Astaghfirullah I think I should stop now .

I'm tired of PH , can I leave PH next year ? Hmm .

#27

This holiday is the tough ones ever . Haihhh got home for only a few days with lots of things to do and buy but don't have much time to search for it . Shit . Plus with my laziness and equal to zero . Idk what to do . Most of ppl who are going to kem Kadet Polis and Renjer Puteri already start doing some of their homework while me still chilling like a boss like there's no homework . Weyyy help me ! I'm stuck in this addictive social network . Ya Allah , help me to realize . Hmm I just need more holidays :( But at the same time I still want to go to the camping , so I have to face it all . 

I forgot , I have 100 additional mathematics homework to finish a.s.a.p. actually but I didn't touch even a bit . Help meeee !!! Hmm I really should realized that actually I am not in Lenggong anymore . Oh gosh ! Hmm I am too lazy , I repeat , TOO LAZY and that's the problem . Haiyaaa ! 

I'M SO DEAD.

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#26

Assalamualaikum :) Yeah I'm back ! Fuhhh like what I said before . My life is getting tiring . Last 2 weeks while people are fighting with books and study , the Girls' Guide's candidates are too busy with our upcoming camp . The camp is next week . So , yeah hmm I'm only home for a week . I'll be back to Pengkalan Hulu on 2nd June and it is on my 2nd sister's birthday . Its too early . I got tons of homework to finish . Allah , help me ! 

And right after this mid semester holiday , we got 3 event . Hmm , Princess's Night , PRS's Talent Night and Masquerade Night . I have no idea when am I going to buy stuffs for that 3 event and camp's stuff . I got so many things to buy ! Either way I still didn't make any move . Haha . I really wish I can hangout with Ain , Shera , Nad , Rai and others but hmm I guess I couldn't make it . I'm so damn busy this week . 

Got many kenduri on Sunday , will be going to Ipoh and insyaAllah Penang too on Monday and out of the town on Tuesday until Friday . 1st June is the day I have to pack all of my stuffs back and 2nd June I already have to go back to Pengkalan Hulu . Sad life isn't it ! I feel like crying ........ That is why I said I think I couldn't make it , I can't hangout with them . Sigh , but I got many things-to-buy and I didn't list them out yet . 

I'm way too busy . My academics are getting worse than before . Idk how to improve . I was thinking to go to tuition this holiday but time didn't want me to . I'm afraid , hmm . If only I was at Lenggong now , I know who should I find to ask for a favor . I miss Tenth and Lenggong so bad . I feel empty without them .

Life at PH is scaring me :( I'm scared . May Allah ease everything for me . InsyaAllah :')

#25

Assalamualaikum ! Here I am , home again ! Woohoo ! Damn , life at PH was so tiring eh its actually life as a form 4 student . Ahh nvm :p My life there was so far so good with some friends around me , Eila , Izzatul , Farah and Qu but still , I miss Lenggong so bad :((
I miss Batch '10 :(( How I wish Ain , Syara , Wani , Bella , Aina , Nad , Afifah and EP and everyone was there beside me :'( You guys are my everything , tenth .

Well last 2 weeks we got Hari Bumi and I bet others MRSM were celebrating it too . Well its not the same as what Lenggong used to have on Hari Bumi like what I had last year . Hmm nvm , I just have to accept the fact that its never gonna be the same way . Oh yaa the standardized exam haha , my results were way too bad ! I don't even wanna talk too much about it and I hope I can do better for my Final Sem 1 . Aja aja fighting to all MRSM's student especially Lenggong-ians !

How I wish I can vote for KC as Biro Akademik , Mastura as Biro Puteri and Khazis as Biro Sukan kat MRSM Taiping's election soon . I do pray for them , may they have the chance to win . InsyaAllah . Chaiyok ! You guys was great to pass every stage of being the chosen one !

Oh yaa , pray for me to be one of ninth to go to Kem Pandu Puteri MRSM Se-Malaysia 2013 . I really really wanna go but Cikgu Athirah want to pick us based on our 'kawad' so yeah I'm trying , I've done the best that I can . I really wanna go and I'm still struggling to be the chosen one . Saingan terlalu sengit , the thing is ! I only can do the best and pray . May Allah ease everything and give me chance . Amin :)

There's too many things I wanna say , haha I just realized so maybe this is the last one . Last week , we have an event called 'Enjoy Cup' where its a competition that been held by BWP , I guess and it was just for fun and enjoy . So the girls played handball and the boys played futsal . It was fun and exciting and TIRING ! We can't go back to hostel on that day unless in the afternoon . We have about an hour or 2 to rest and solat . And then we need to go back to the astaka and continue our game . My class didn't win but I enjoyed that day . It was fun . The most fun day that I ever felt ever since I was there (sebulan baru) . K whatever .

I do look happy but the fact is I don't really happy . I want my second family . Hmm that's all from me . Have a nice day ahead people !